1989-2008

I met Michael around the summer of 89. He had just got out of the army. I met him threw a friend of mine. Which was his cusion. We were together a short time before we were both living with his grandmother. We rented a house after a few months. Michael had alot of friends. I was not really the social type so I dont have many friends just co workers. We were just average people trying the best that we could. In 1990 we decided to have kids. It took 6 months by which time we had given up trying. After concieving we decided that we should probably get married. So in december of 90 we got married. Alex was born in 91. We never had alot of things or money but we had each other. You never apprieciate what you have until its gone. Money can be an evil for all people. When you have bills money can cause people to fight all the time. Luck came our way when Michaels aunt had a very small house that she didnt want anymore. So we took over the payments and lived there for over ten years. Kaela came along 9 years after Alex. That was a miracle to us because we thought we wouldn't have anymore kids. But we had Alex and that would have been enough. But the lord saw that it was time to add a baby girl to our lives. She has been a challenge since the second week that I was pregnant. I was sick the whole nine months. But it was well worth it. Alex was always a good child. But for the blessings in our lives we must learn from them. Kaela is always teaching me new things.
Michael and I bought a new house in 2007 a buitiful house to us three bedroom in a nice neiborhood. Michael was very proud of it. We were finally starting to get are debts taking care of so we wouldn't have to stuggle anymore just to get by day to day. In May of 08 Alex moved out to be on his own. In June of 08 our dog Silk, who was Michaels pride and joy passed away at about the age of 15. He was a rottweiller that everyone loved. This broke Michaels heart. Around the beging of July Michael was diagnosed with lung cancer. Once he was diagnosed it was a battle from day one. He got sick was in and out of the hospital. he went in to ICU for about a week his lungs shut down. We were gave a miracle and he survived his lungs shutting down after the doctors said he wouldn't. He got to come home for three days and be with his family. He went back in for an infection. He wasn't strong enough at that time to fight it. He was in the hospital about another week. Michael passed away on September 26th 2008. He never got to enjoy his life because it was always about working and trying to pay the bills. I wish now as do many others that we would have taken the time to enjoy things. I was not the perfect wife far from it. He was not the perfect husband. But we were perfect for each other. I now have a nice house and things that are paid for. But I lost the one thing that ment the most to me, Michael. I will always love him and he will always be in my thoughts and heart.

I will continue to jump around in dates though out my blogging. I'm not good at sticking to one subject. I do like to talk and could tell people alot about life. I have learned alot from Michael. When he was with me and when he left me. I hope to help people out if they ever need it. God does what he knows is right. I understand that Michael did what he was sent here to do. I do not know what that was or will I ever know. But I believe that now it is time for me to help others anyway I can.
I have had a hard life and a good life. If you would have asked me a year ago I would tell you my life was not good. There are things I could say but won't because I do have family and friends that I dont think need to know everything about me. But I have had many things in my life that I could probably talk to you about. If you need someone to talk to about anything. I'm here I can give advice but I can't make up your mind. My husband was a good man. So if that is your problem I'm sorry I can't give much advice on that. But I'm here for you. Haveing people around you is what helps us get threw are lives day to day. I have been fortunate to have married a great man even though at the time I didn't think so. Now I know how wrong I was. I also know God will not give you things that you can not handle. I thank God that we were gave the extra time to forgive each other for our faults and that we could be there together when God took Michael. I know Michael is needed somewhere else now and his job here was done.